Wednesday, February 24, 2010
what's said here stays here...
yo readers its your boy again.....anyway as you can see from my title what's said here stays here...reason is that i don't like it being talked about outside this blog due to the fact that i might become emo and i hate being emo haha....anyway i have girl classmate i will not name her and as the months goes by i started to like her...at first i was hesistant because she has a boyfriend....after she broke up with him i saw the opportunity that maybe just maybe i might be able to show what i'm all about unfortunately for me i am what you call a "TORPE"..now i have this boy classmate he like this girl a lot except that he always keep trying no matter how many times he was shot down.. to describe the guy he is not your typical likeable guy i give the guy credit because he is persistent..and then this turned out to be one of the most unexpected shit that ever happen to me...today i found out that this guy and this girl that i like are starting to like each other...for the first time in many years i never felt so jealous...i actually never could have imagine they are actually liking each other.despite my emotions i keep up a mask (my face) to show that i am affected and to hide what i really feel inside...deep inside me i felt that my heart sunk...i felt like shit...yes i know i'm being gay right now but anyway i don't give a shit...i start to ask myself questions why i didn't do these? do that? etc....personal reflection i think i should done something earlier...maybe i should have let her feel that i like her...maybe i should have muster that courage when it was needed....anyway i still have that envious feeling in me..i envy them.....maybe it's not my time yet there might be hope out there or maybe we are not meant to be....anyway to summarize it all up i was kinda heart broken....best thing to do for now is to lay low, keep my head up high it's not the end of the world...funny shit that we're not even together but i got affected this much???? haha i'm such a loser aight peace out brothas......
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